Ok, as you go through life sometimes things go so fast that it take everything you got to remember all day to day actions and functions of your life. My problem is I find
myself searching for medicine to slow life down so I can process all the thoughts and happenings of the days. Its hard to write when I m happy cause the mind dont want to relive the past
or the future just in the day it is in. The days past have been good and theyve been real bad. My
mind has been in protect mode, beating it self up for things it feels it has done wrong in the past, it tries to not do as it has been done, and in trying to do so it runs uncontrollable through
life. Days become one so do months and as it tries to process good thoughts from the bad the mind set becomes very very fragile. One stressor of the day sets it off in to a blurry rage
of emotions and it cant process all the thoughts so what happens, it breaks down and does everything without a thought it goes on instinct and lashes out as it has been lashed out against.
I can relate to that man. most times, moreso lately, my moods are so intense that I cant write things I want to because I am happy with the moment and know that if I say what I want, Ill get so pist off. Then times come where I read or see something that angers me so much I lose control and rage as I type in a fury. Or get so depressed and type something to express the pain I feel and as I read over, I know for others to read it means nothing and get remarks that show that they are unable to feel how I do. Wether it be a post or a conversation offline
ReplyDeleteGood post! Keep writing.
ReplyDeleteTry NOT to control your thought when all possible. I know... sounds counterintuitive, but will actually take a lot of stress off the brain. It'll tend to relieve the "need to control," resulting in a lack-there-of.
Hi sorry I haven't check your blog in the last few days or weeks not sure like you said some times days turn into weeks before you know it. I do understand. I think I have use up my back space key. Take care and be good or at least try.
ReplyDeletetroy, least you got a mind, mine is all beerified.
ReplyDeletewhen i go in a rage, which reall ain't all that often, i make my self eat spinach, now you know the rest of the story.