GROWING UP

It starts at birth weather it a tramatic birth or not life its self is tramatic and every event in your life effects your mind and i mean every. U may not see this until later in life but be prepared and take note through your life cause everything you hear see touch taste dream is stamped a part of life. yes I think life is planed in advance of birth but the trick is to under stand that plan. In my mind the events that have occured are what Im supposed to see and learn from and one day pass the experience on to the next generation. To me you dont have to go to college to get your masters in life as long as you learn from every experience tramatic or not and use that for everyday life thats the plan as i see it and i ll try to explain as i go. To be abused as a todler or abused as an adult some may say there all the same in a way thats true the difference to me is as a toddler u remember very young as it is stamped in your mind and as you go along it flashes back as the plan unfolds some of us are mentaly strong enough to with stand it and some not, strong may struggle but they will survive the problem in this life is when we know we need help where is the help where is the people that have been where we r today.they r blind to there life and dont see it in color neither do they see the shapes of life, it is very blured and destorted, the plan of theres is sent back to the drawing board and is planed into our to help the next with theres. The distance between you and your mother and father play a very major role, and it affects the mind very bloutly and like a ton of bricks, from anger to depression to the loss of feeling in the sole its very brutal on the mind and these experiences are the school of life, and the mind will always see these stamps the trick is to master these experiences and pass them on but people are so blind of this, they think a book can tell u this. These experiences have a lot of color and lots of shape, we that see this are sometimes deemed as crazy and they want to surpess with medicine and drugs intsead of seeing the real us and under standing our experiences in life and each are different and colorful. I beleive there is sombody in this world we are mentaly connected to those r the ones who know the real soles of our lives, and sees the real us they stick beside us though the worst of times, and i do mean the worst, yes they stay even through the rage that these experiences bring , I could start at the begining, but I choose to start at the what i call 40% mark in my life, this is my mental connect point in my life, where i have found a very wonderful woman whose stamp on my life has opened my eyes to the world of life and the value it brings, not to brag , or not to boast, but it is the truth, shes been through smialar experiences in life so the connection is very close, mental state plays plays a important role, in this . I grasp life so tight that I squeeze life out of life , and and it effects everyone in tow, as these flashs flash at every option they get in life these flashes may cause severe rage in some cases cause we feel were back in time again so we panic and the rage runs wild through our mind as we search for a anwser to the experience in our life, weather we been there before or there now the mind some may panic and become very depressive, very angry, very grumbling, thoughts become uncontrolable the mind races to process the thoughts this could happen for days as the mind wears down the sole of u losses sight of the importants of life, thats when you have to realize the meaning of it and embrace it,master it to get the true meaning of life thats the fight we fight everyday of or planed life.