MENTAL NOTE TO SELF

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MY MIND TO DAY 1-25-11

TODAY  INT BAD AT ALL FINALY GOT THINGS STRAIGHTENED WITH MY DAUGHTER AFTER HER MOTHER FUCKED THINGS UP AGAIN  WHEN WILL PEOPLE LEAVE THEIR KIDS ALONE AND STOP CAUSING THEM MENTAL ANGUISH. THE BULLSHIT SOME OF THESE MOTHERS PULL IS FUKIN STUPID AND THEY DONT SEE THAT. YES I M SURE EVERYONE HAS READ MY BLOG ON USELESS, STATE, COUNTY, GOVERMENT, AND SOME MAY THING IM STUPID BUT THESE OUR THE THINGS THEY DO TO ME, AND OUR DOING TO EVERYONE EVERYDAY, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, TODAY MAY BE THEY DAY I FINALY BROKE THROUGH  TO SOMEONE AND MIGHT GET SOME HELP FINALY, EVERYONE PRAY, THAT THEY WILL DO THIER JOB THIS TIME AND FROM NOW ON. HOPEFULLY ALL MY HARD WORK WILL FINALLY PAY OFF I HOPE, I HAVE RAISED ALOT OF HELL HER IN MY HOME TOWN BUT FOR A GOOD REASON, BEING ACCUSED OF BEING A METH COOKER (WHICH I ONCE WAS BUT NOT NOW), AND A POT GROWER (WHICH I ONCE WAS BUT NOT NOW), YES I FINALLY GREW UP AND GOT GOOD WOMAN WHO TAKES CARE OF ME AND MY CHILDREN, SO THE MIND IS PRETTY GOOD TODAY CAUSE I KNOW MY SELF AND MANY OTHERS THESE THINGS ARE LIES AND IT HAS BEEN PROVEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN 

SO THE MIND SAYS TO ALL YOU HATERS KEEP HATEN "GOD" WILL JUDGE YOU IN YOUR OWN TIME SO KEEP JUDGING PEOPLE YOU WILL BE JUDGED IN YOUR OWN TIME TRUST ME. BUT THAT OK PEOPLE CAUSE WE KNOW THE TRUTH RIGHT BUT FOR NOW ME ,MY WIFE AND KIDS ARE SAFE AND I PLAN TO KEEP IT THAT WAY PERIOD.

SO GOOD DAY FROM DIRTS WORLD

AND ILL BE BACK!!!!!!

DUMB ASS BITCHS

HERE WE GO AGAIN PEOPLE THE DUMB ASS BITCH IS AT IT AGAIN CALLING SOCIAL SERVICES CALLING THE STATE POLICE AND WASTING EVERYONES TIME AND MONEY  MOSTLY THE TAX PAYERS MONEY. THE BITCH SITS BACK SMOKES HER SOME CRACK AND STARTS FREAKING OUT SEE THAT'S WHAT CRACK DOES TO YOU IT MAKES YOU DO STUPID SHIT, THE DUMB ASS BITCH CAN CALL ALL THESE PEOPLE AND MENTALLY ABUSE THE KIDS AGAIN, BUT THE DUMB ASS BITCH CANT PAY CHILD SUPPORT , SHE CAN HIRE HER AN A ATTORNEY , BUT THE DUMB ASS BITCH CANT PAY CHILD SUPPORT, THE DUMB ASS BITCH CAN BUY HER CRACK, PAY FOR HER INTERNET HER CELL PHONE, BUT THE DUMB ASS BITCH CANT PAY CHILD SUPPORT. SHE DON'T CARE AT ALL ABOUT THE KIDS LIVES SHE DESTROYS OR WHO'S FAMILIES SHE HURTS DUMB ASS BITCH'S I REALLY REALLY HATE BITCH'S LIKE THIS YOU KNOW THE ONES WHO DON'T CARE WHO'S LIVES THEY DESTROY. THE CRAZY BITCH'S SHOULD BE COMMITTED OR THROWED IN FUKING JAIL, OH I FORGOT I M WORKING ON THROWING THERE DUMB ASS IN JAIL SINCE THEY HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO EXCEPT STIR UP SHIT AND OF COURSE NOT PAY CHILD SUPPORT, NO GOOD BITCH'S. DON'T WORRY PEOPLE THE DUMB ASS BITCH'S WILL GET WHAT THEY GOT COMING SINCE ALL THEY HAVE TO DO IS STIR UP SHIT, AND BREAK THE LAW SPEAKING OF WITCH TRIED TO BUY A BABY FOR 3 THOUSAND AND A FORD EXPEDITION , OR STICKING THE KIDS IN THE TRUCK DRIVING ACROSS TOWN AND NOW FALSE REPORTING SO YOU DUMB ASS BITCH'S KEEP BREAKING THE LAW, IT WILL COME BACK TO GET YOU SOONER OR LATER
KEEP TRING TO RUIN YOUR KIDS LIFE THEY HAVE ALL THE WHILE YOU DO NOTHING AND I MEAN NOTHING BUT CAUSE SHIT, AND OF COURSE NOT PAY CHILD SUPPORT, SHIT ON THERE LAZY ASS AND JUST RUIN THERE KIDS LIVES AND OF COURSE NOT PAY CHILD SUPPORT BUT THEN SAY THEY CARE.
I WOULD HATE TO LIVE WITH MYSELF IF I LIVED LIKE THIS ALWAYS CAUSING THERE KIDS PAIN AND TRING TO RUIN FAMILIES BOY IT TAKES A REAL DUMB ASS BITCH TO LIVE LIKE THIS I GUESS I SHOULD BRING UP HOW SHE ALLOWED HER KIDS TO GO IN TO FOSTER CARE FOR THREE MONTHS AFTER SHE TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE ON EASTER THEY WENT TO FOSTER CARE CAUSE SHE SAID THERE WAS NO FATHER. SO TELL ME IF I SHOULD GET HER FOR PERJURY CAUSE THEY WHERE UNDER OATH WHEN THEY WHERE ASKED OH THAT'S RIGHT SOCIAL SERVICES ARE GETTING ALL THAT INFORMATION TO HANG YOUR ASS SO YOU DUMB ASS BITCH'S JUST KEEP ON KEEPING ON AND WE WILL LEAVE THE LIGHT ON FOR YOU 24/7 THE JAILS ALWAYS OPEN.
SO TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO READ THIS, READ ALL MY POST AND LOOK AT THE PATTERN HERE NOTICE HOW THERE WAS PEACE IN OUR LIVES UNTIL THE DUMB ASS BITCH'S STARTED ACTING LIKE DUMB ASS BITCH'S.

PEACE OUT FROM DIRT'S WORLD
I WILL BE BACK UNTIL THE BITCHES GO AWAY OR THROWED IN JAIL
MAY LOVE BE WITH YOU ALL
DIRT!!!!!!!!!!!!

DEAD BEAT PARENTS

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STUPID ATTORNEY'S

WELL LET JUST START BY SAYING, I HATE DUMB ASS ATTORNEYS. WHY YOU ASK CAUSE THERE IS THIS ONE WHO WORKS FOR MY BROKE EX-WIFE, WE WILL CALL HIM MISS HAWES. YES I KNOW I SAID HIM, BUT HE ACTS LIKE A GIRL. THIS DUMB ASS I BET WOULD DEFEND MY DOG AND STILL LOSE. HE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT HOW CRAZY I AM AND HOW MENTAL I AM, THE THING IS THERE IS ONLY A FEW POINTS BETWEEN CRAZY AND GENIUS. NOW I NOT TRING TO BE A SMART ASS OR ANYTHING OR CONCEDED BUT I AM PRETTY FUCKIN SMART LOOK AT ALL THE BULLSHIT I FIGURED OUT ABOUT THE FUKIN COUNTY AND THE CITY AND THE STATE , YOU THINK THEY TOLD ME THESE SECRETS, YEAH I DIDN'T THROWN OUT OF THE PROSECUTORS OFFICE FOR NOTHING.

WELL NOW LETS TALK ABOUT HIS DUMB ASS, WHO IS THE ONE WHO DRINK BEER ON THERE LUNCH BREAK AND THEN GOES BACK TO COURT TO DEFEND PEOPLE IN COURT, NOW WHO'S THE ONE THAT IS MENTAL . HEY MISS HAWES DO YOU KNOW YOUR CODE OF ETHICS SURE YOU DON'T DUMB ASS, IF YOU DID YOU WOULD KNOW THAT ,THAT IS THE BIGGEST STUPIDEST MISTAKE A ATTORNEY COULD MAKE , I WOUNDER HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN CONVICTED CAUSE HIS DUMB ASS WAS DRUNK. YES NOT ONCE BUT THREE TIMES I HAVE SEEN HIM DRINKING BEER ON HIS LUNCH , NO IT IS NOT SLANDER IT IS REAL SHIT , I DON'T LIE ABOUT PEOPLE I TELL YOU THE TRUTH . HE WANTS TO SLANDER ME IN COURT ,LIE ABOUT ME, LIE ABOUT MY KIDS, LIE ABOUT MY FAMILY, WELL MISS HAWES HOW DOES IT FEEL FOR EVERYONE WHO READS THIS WILL NOW KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT YOUR DRUNK ASS. I WONDER IF I CAN GET YOU THROWED OUT OF EVER PRACTICING LAW EVER AGAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. HE WANTS TO COMPLAIN ABOUT MY BLOG. SITE IN COURT TO THE JUDGE FOR WHAT CAUSE I TELL THE TRUTH WELL I WONDER HOW MANY THERE IS ABOUT "ME". LIKE I FUKIN CARE DIP SHIT . THE ONES WHO KNOW ME KNOW THE TRUTH AND KNOW I DONT BULL SHIT, LIE OR WHAT EVER ELSE THERE STUPID PEOPLE SAY. THEY ALWAYS HAVE TO LIE FOR EACH OTHER. BET THAT SUCKS LIVING YOUR LIFE AS ONE BIG FUKING LIE BET THAT SUCKS FOR YOU MISS HAWES YOU WANT TO DO BATTLE WITH ME NOT A PROBLEM PREPARE TO PACK YOUR SHIT AND MOVE TO OUT OF THE U.S. CAUSE WE ARE TIRED OF DUMB ASSES LIKE YOU WHO SCREW UP THE COURT SYSTEM SO KEEP YOUR BULLSHIT UP DUMB ASS LET SEE WHO WINS I M PREPARED ARE YOU BRING IT ON DRUNK, I CAN SHOW WHERE THERE ARE SOME 12 STEP PROGRAMS FOR YOU AND YOUR PROBLEM. BEER AND COURT DON'T MIX GOT IT STUPID SO KEEP YOUR SHIT UP SO THE WORLD CAN SEE HOW YOU AND YOUR BUDDIES SCREW UP THE COURTS. THAT IS WHY I BLOG STUPID TO SHOW THE WORLD PEOPLE LIKE YOU AND HOW YOU PISS ME OFF WITH YOUR EVIL WAYS  SO HERE I AM YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME PLEASE COME LEARN MORE, LET ME SCHOOL YOU ABOUT ME, LET ME SHOW YOU HOW I WORK STUPID, OH YEAH DON'T BE FUKIN AROUND IF YOU ANT TO DO THIS LETS DO IT,
I
AM
PREPARED
ARE
YOU !!!!!!!

MY MIND TODAY 11/30/09

THIS POST IS NOT INTENDED FOR MY FOLLOWERS WHO CARE.

Today is bad, the way I feel fuck all you mother fuckers who dont want to hear what i have to say, or what i care about. At least I not a spine less bastard who is scared of the goverment or anyone else. Censor me i dont care, i will still be heard weather or not you care or not, if you dont care fuck off and find somewhere else to live, CLEAR MY SITES , MY BLOGS , AND ANYTHING ELSE YOU THINK ISNT TRUE. I dont lie I tell the truth and if the truth hurts to fuckin bad, deal with it. I will not lay down and be run over again and again by all you spine less mother fuckers of this world. You dumb ass mother fuckers with all your money and power take this BLOG and shove it up your fucking ass, your the reason I m writing this blog cause you dumb asses think you are all that and more. All you goverment people encluding OBAMA eat me, you motherfuckers give yourself raises when ever you want and then dont give it to the ones who need it. In stead you are more concerned about a fucking war you can not win and will not. YOU STUPID BASTARDS CANT EVEN TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN COUNTRY OR ITS PEOPLE SO HOW THE FUCK YOU THINK YOU CAN TAKE CARE OF SOME ONE ELSES COUNRTY. YOU STUPID MOTHER FUCKERS GROW UP DO WHAT WE PUT YOU THERE FOR TO TAKE CARE OF ARE WELL BEING NOT SOME OTHER COUNTRIES. LOOK STUPIDS JUST LOOK AT ARE FUCKIN WORLD HERE IN THE UNITED STATES IS IT ACTUALLY ANY BETTER THAN AFRICA, RUSSIA , CHINA, AND IF SO MOTHER FUCKERS HOW IS IT BETTER. TELL ME I DYING TO KNOW ALL YOU HIGH PAYED DUMB ASS I HAVE A FUCKIN "G.E.D." AND I M SMARTER THAN YOU DUMB ASS PEOPLE. oh what is the use all people just blow right by and dont give a fuck about what is happening here in the "u.s.a." what ever the fuck that means. for all you non followers who dont have a fucking clue what me and 20 million others are fucking talkin about just keep living your life the way your masters want you to, oh yeah while your at it bend over so they can FUCK YOU IN YOUR ASS LIKE THEY DO EVERY FUCKIN DAY OF YOUR SPINE LESS, NO CARE, SCARED WORLD. yes that right I m a mad mother fucker to day and I m holding nothing back tired of being told quit bitchin shut up get a life, well cry me a fuckin river, some boby has to do it you stupid mother fuckers of this world sure arent going to go against your masters"SCARED LITTLE BITCHES". better yet wont you come shut me up if your not scared your to scared to say anything to your masters so lets see if you will try. yes google go head take this blog take everything I have just like your own masters want you to hide the truth, lie for them just like they want. I dont care you wont silence me or the others who hold the actuall truth and not all these fuckin lie you hear on the fuckin so called news.

Yeah the news when is it ever the fuckin truth , some one please tell me, if I m a person who voilates the law then what the fuck are you and all the leaders of this world, when every fuckin word that come out of your mouth is a FUCKING LIE and when do they ever tell the truth. oh you fuckin cenoring bastards are just scared of the real truth and how bad it might hurt you and your fat ass fuckin wallet paded by all your fuckin lies.

SO FUCK ALL YOU SPINLESS BASTARDS OF THIS WORLD !!!!!

CRYSTAL METH

CRYSTAL METH

Hi everyone, this post will tell the effects of meth and its toll it took on my mind, family and friends please bare with me this post could be very long. Well it has been years since I ve done any meth or to speak of the monster. I m 35 now and it just hit me today how meth effected my mind when my 9 year old brought home a school project and it is a time line of her life to date. Well for most of the normal world this would be very easy, but for me not so easy, I tried to think of when she first walked or even yet what her first word was and all I do is draw a blank. Yes this is very sad to me, it should be easy, it has not been that long, it should be like yesterday, well maybe for some, but when the mind is wacked out on this little lady (CRYSTAL METH) the days or memories are just a blur, and it does hurt to think what the hell was i thinking I missed a big part of there life and I know first hand how it feels not to have a parent in your life or one that cares anyway, I had a parent not care about me, actually two of them, but god had another plan and gave me a great mother that has stood beside me the the good and the very very ugly, so yes I give him thanks for that. But in trying to remember the past of my children's life there is an empty space and now it is very very real how the effects of this pretty little lady had on my mind. I could go on and on about this , but the real story lies in the effects it is still having years after. I could lie and say it didn't hurt me, my family, and my friends but then I would not be any better than I was back then, so I have to tell the truth and admit that it was all wrong.

I can see now what there life was like and how hard it was on them. This drug is a silent killer everything seems fine until you come down, as you look in the mirror and see your sunk in jaws and them eyes, as if there is no pupil, veins are all sunk into your skin as there is no blood in them, stomach sunk in as if you haven't ate in a few weeks, and your mind, your thoughts blend together as life just blows by as one big blur, you crave, you want, you will get more to feed the beast that grows within, to myself, I look fine, feel fine, but I know the beast wants more. Your world suddenly stops and the search begins. Weather the search is for another fix, or another ounce, the beast will get what it wants at all cost, no matter the cost, you will feed the beast that feeds on this fuel. I at all cost did what I had to do to get the next fix, just to make it through the day. Mean while my kids were put on the back burner to cook in there own little world, while there parents went on there date with CRYSTAL METH, while on this date the parents sold there souls to her, little did they know she was the devil and she was here to control their lives and their world. Meanwhile their family and friends wonder who they are, where have they went, why are they like that, what did I do wrong, are we bad Friends and family, no that is the picture the devil paints as it runs wide open through their lives, The shit makes you lie, cheat, steal, do shit that a normal person wound think two or three times about doing, but to the lost souls of CRYSTAL METH it all seems like the right thing to do. It blinds us to the thing that are most important in are lives, the ones we love, ourselves, you name it she destroys it. To us the ones that sold our souls for her, we believe she is the way and most all of us follow her to the very end and I do mean the very end.

It is sad, very sad, but I wouldn't change a thing at all the hard times were hard, very hard, just not on me but on everyone I come in contact with. I wouldn't change a thing cause the times we had now make me the person I am today, I may be crazier than hell, or sometimes mean as hell but the thing that matters most to me now are my kids and family and I will at all cost protect them as I protected her back then. Some say I m stupid , some tell me to chill out, some say shut up their tired of here me, but I will not be, and should not be, the person I was, I will be the I am today and will stay this person, always on my guard, always quick to defend the ones I love the most. I may have caused a lot of pain and a lot of heart ache but to the ones I have caused the most pain, the ones who actually care for me and my family, I will be there for them when they need me, I will put the pain in the past, and I will be the loratab for that pain. The pain I cause today, tomorrow, next week will only be for the best, as to say the pain to take away a pain. I will cause no harm to the ones I love, I will not let them suffer for no one, and that includes the parents, I will at all cost never let these evil things of this world come between my children, my family and my dear friends.